Why?
As some of you know I have been having a hell of a time these past couple of weeks just keeping it together emotionaly. I even did a no call, no show at one place last week, (my first ever) a supposed garunteed ticket to getting fired, and yet they asked me to come back this week. Not only that, after I told them I had to quit with no notice they said to think it over and if I was in a better place in a couple of weeks they would take me back. (Really thats just a good company there and I can't fault them for caring about an employee)
The place I quit almost two months ago calls while I'm trying to design websites and wants to know where I am. Sure I helped out filling shifts long after I quit, and when the the person who sort of replaced me quit I filled in their shifts too but c'mon. Turns out they thought they texted me about a shift and never sent the message. (No problem there either since I love that place and probably would have helped out had I got the text.)
Then I have all the people saying I have to do this, I have to do that, what are you doing on this date, don't make plans then because we're doing something, why
don't you want to come over (
guilt trip). Or they pull the "You said you would do this..." when really it's their selective memory at work, they said I would do it.
Part of my cutting back at working has been to get my online stuff up and running at full income capacity. Between obligations, holidays and severe depression I have not been able to get 10% of what I wanted to accomplish done. And even mentioning to some people that I have work to do online they either roll their eyes or snicker like its some mad delerious dreamworld I'm temporarily living in and why don't I quit lying about making money and give up.
I keep thinking, "Who needs a job when you have friends."
It shouldn't be this much work scheduling my life. I'm supposed to have a ton of free time now, where does it go?
